I've been feeling pretty stressed. I work out and do lots of hobbies to get my mind off of things, but the thing is, I can't stand working at my new school. The classroom is very small and cluttered. My partner teacher is very LOUD and too hyper. Her kids are loud and hyper as a result. When my kids get to school (I teach afternoon kinder) they are fine. It's when she comes back from her lunch break and starts helping with centers that gets my kids all wiggly and loud too. The room is a disaster. She has junk EVERYWHERE!! I had an observation today and I just don't think it went all that well. I try to do things the way she does it, but it just doesn't work, and the P had to witness this. It sucks, because I normally don't run my class like she does, it doesn't work. And the P had to observe this and mention it. I just wanted to tell him, but I am following what she does!!! Anyways, I am at my wit's end. I woke up three or four times last night in a panic attack. My heart was beating so loud that it woke me up three/four times. I didn't get much sleep last night. I was depressed this morning and I was depressed when I drove home. I don't know if my heart is into teaching this year. I AM a good teacher. THis is my fourth year and I feel very confident as a teacher, BUT after what happened last year at my last district, I have to make a good impression this year with the P so that they'll rehire me again. SOOOOOO, I am trying to keep things peaceful between me and my partner teacher. I do what she does so that we just have a good relationship. It's not working. I am going to go insane if I continue this. I just don't know what to do. I am terrifed to talk to her about anything. I've actually tried, and she bushes me off. OH!! And if her cellphone rings one more time when I am trying to teach my class, I am going to throw it out the door!!!! Actually, I'm just kidding..... or am I?? Oh dear, my panic attack just started again.