I don't really know what to do about my current situation at school. I have been a kindergarten teacher at my school for 3 years. Kindergarten was never my dream job, and I would like to teach 1st, 2nd, or 3rd eventually. A first grade position is open at my school for next year. My principal has known that I have wanted to eventually move up since my first year. He says very nice things about me (directly to me, and to other people), gives me great reviews, etc. When he heard that the first grade teacher was going to retire (back in January), he spoke to me about the position. He said that when he had the ok to hire, we would sit down with the other first grade teachers and talk. He wanted to make sure I was still interested. So, a few weeks ago he came to me and said that he was going to post the job, and I would have to apply and interview (this is not a common practice in my district-usually they just move people within a building). The interview is 1 hour long, and then I have to teach a 15 minute literacy lesson to one of the first grade classes. Six people are being interviewed, and I am under the impression that teachers from other schools within the district have applied for the job, as well. I probably shouldn't feel this way, but I just feel really insulted. Have I not proven myself in my 3 years that I have been teaching at my school? Has he never seen me teach, or did I just imagine the 9 evaluations he did of me in the past 3 years? What can I honestly say during the interview that they don't know about me already? I heard from one of the first grade teachers that he is doing all of this because he just wants to make sure I'm really ready for first grade. It's not like I'm moving from kindergarten to 11th grade physics! I think that I have proven in the past 3 years that if I say I'm going to do something, I give 110% and do my best. I'm just incredibly stressed out over everything. I think it's a miracle that I ever got a job in the first place, because I am horrible at interviewing, and I get so nervous that I shake. How on earth am I supposed to teach a lesson in front of everyone?! Plus, I honestly don't know if I can handle not being hired for the position. That would be very awkward and uncomfortable. I'm seriously considering pulling out, even though I have my interview scheduled. I just don't know if I can handle the disappointment of not getting the job. Just today I had to close my door during my prep time to cry for a good 15 minutes. I'm doing all I can to hold it in now. What would you do? Should I just suck it up and go through with it? I'm just such an emotional person, and I am so hard on myself.