I just started my first year of teaching kindergarten. I started Monday and it's just Wednesday evening. I keep telling myself that the first year is going to be hell, but this is just awful and overwhelming. The other teachers are helpful, but they bombard me with constant information it just turns into information overload. I thought I was prepared (boy was I wrong). I've finished the coursework for my alternate certification program, I read the book "First Day of School" and I thought that I would have time to plan everything out, but last week, I was in meetings all week ,and my classroom was in shambles. By the time I finally got my classroom done, it was time for the students to come, and I was totally unprepared. I teach minority kids from low-income homes and most of these kids have little to no structure at home. Classroom management is just so hard. I just feel so stressed and frazzled. Today I literally went into the bathroom and cried my eyes out. I just feel like a failure. I get so discouraged when I'm in the middle of a lesson and one of the students raises his/her hand to tell me "I want to go home" "when can we eat". I just feel like I can't do this and I feel that since the first week is almost over I can't be forceful about a discipline plan. I mean, my para has more control than I do! I just feel like a failure and that I can't do this. I can't teach because I'm constantly having to tell either one student or this other group to "sit down" "be quiet" "shut up" ugh! It's only been 3 days and I already feel like I want to throw in the towel. This actually makes me miss my retail job. Any/all advice is appreciated.