Last year I left my job mid-year due to extreme stress triggering a ton of health stuff. I'd been at my school 5 years and it just progressively got worse/more stressful every year until the pandemic hit and the extra expectations of remote learning pushed me over the edge. This year I got a job in my dream district. I'm an aide, but it's a foot in the door and I think I have a decently solid chance of a teaching spot next year... if I want to. We're not even through the first quarter yet and I'm starting to seriously consider if I even want to go back into the classroom. My new school is way better than my old school in a lot of ways, but I'm still just exhausted and stressed all the time. I know some (most?) of it is pandemic related. Student behavior is out of control; everyone is stressed, traumatized, and struggling to get back to some semblance of "normal" while still wearing masks, trying to distance, and make up for a year of remote/hybrid learning. And I'm just having a hard time remembering which parts of teaching I still enjoy, which parts I can deal with, and which parts are only because of the pandemic. I want to make curriculum and teaching resources. I don't know if I want to keep working with kids, but I do have genuinely positive memories from teaching pre-covid that still bring me joy. I might want to work with adults, but I don't know what that looks like in terms of context. Still working in schools as an IC or mentor? Just keep teaching and sign up for student teachers? Leave education and get into something like corporate training or instructional design? Am I burned out or is it just the insanity of the past year and a half? Also, is anyone else feeling this way? Like... please tell me this isn't just me and I didn't just somehow end up in the one school in a new district with ridiculous behavior issues.