Today I was in library dealing with a girl who was not outrageously disrespectful to me but was not respectful either. I talked to her very calmly and quietly because I feel like she's the kind of kid who's very reactionary and getting nasty with her does nothing but fuel the fire. As I was leaving, the librarian called her over and reamed her for being disrespectful to me. The librarian is a battle ax and has in the past yelled at my students in front of me while saying things like, "You may take advantage of MissEducation but you're not going to take advantage of me." I know it's totally out of line of her to say things like that because it undermines me, but it still makes me feel like a doormat. I know the kids are disrespectful but I don't have a magic formula to make them stop. I am trying the best I know how and at the moment it's not good enough. I don't ever feel like I have total control and it's so stressful. I am trying whole brain teaching but the troublesome students who make the class hellish are the same ones not responding to any new methods. I try to stand by my threats/promises but the problem is I feel like I never know when to make the threat! There are many steps my school has in place, and when I'm in the moment I can never determine how serious the behavior is and what type of punishment it warrants. Experienced teachers just seem to instinctively know when to give a detention or call a parent or send someone to the office. Is this a confidence issue? I have never felt less confident than since I became a teacher. I love my school and most days I love my job but I have never felt so inept, and I always considered myself to be a smart and successful person. When will I feel like a normal human being again???