I am a current ST - who back in the spring, had faltered in my first placement - with a CT who told me I wasn't cut out for teaching (high school history). This gave me a pretty hard blow to my self-confidence and I did a lot of questioning about my abilities. My program people put me on a candidate assistance plan (CAP) assigned me to a new supervisor (who is a lot more sympathetic, knows me better) who placed me at a new school this fall, with two different CTs, with two varying styles. Now ever since I've started the semester, I have been very anxious - can't sleep at night - I think all the time about my lessons...how to change them, tweak them. Fast forward to this past Friday, I began teaching a lesson that pretty much bombed in terms of classroom management - the kids were way too noisy, acting up, etc. And to top it off, it was one with my CT and supervisor observing. I got their feedback and I KNOW that I messed up and where I can improve. However, since then, my anxiety has gone up - where I still can't sleep, have little energy, and have gotten even more anxious. It has gotten to the point where I wonder whether I’m cut out for teaching…is anxiety that normal? Or is the anxiety telling me that maybe this isn’t right for me? I’m really under the gun in terms of the career path and my home life. I’m married with one child ( 5 yrs old), 47 years old, and switching from jobs in international business, technology. My wife dislikes being the breadwinner for the last few years and it has been taking a toll on our marriage – she is wondering when I can again contribute significantly to the family finances. If I blow my ST chance here, it will have some really tough consequences on my life, I don’t know what to do career wise and I don’t think I can go back to industry as my industry has changed a lot and my contacts are no longer current. So then, another question – are there career paths in education that don’t necessarily require being in the classroom, and will not completing a credential program be held against me? I do have 2 masters’ degrees, including an MBA from a top tier program, extensive overseas experience.