Nine years ago I quit my first and so far, only, teaching job after 4 years. The main reason was emotional issues. I had no confidence in my abilities as a teacher. For the next 5 years I was a substitute and an elementary IT assistant. I even turned down a position with a team that I had long term subbed with. I guess I was still scared (or scarred) although I was much more confident in my teaching abilities and did enjoy it. My job as an IT assistant simply did not pay enough and since I wasn't willing to teach again, there was nothing else in education I could do that would pay more. So I took a job with local government. I immediately felt like a fish out of water and that has really never left me fully. It was being out of education that finally convinced me that being a teacher and working with children was where I belonged. So for the last 3.5 years I have been looking for a teaching position, with no luck. I have had two interviews in that time. Although one was in my former district and went well, they went with another candidate. My job search this year has been more extensive than ever. I have sent letters or emails to more than 300 schools. And as of yet, no interviews. With this job market I don't feel a lot of hope in getting an interview. So, near the end of August, if I have not yet obtained a job as I teacher, I will quit my current job and sub in the hopes of building a good reputation that will hopefully make it more likely that I will get hired. Subbing was how I got my first classroom, and will hopefully help me get another. I have been at my current job for almost four years, and it's not getting me any closer to my own classroom. I don't know if it is the wisest decision, but it feels like the right one. So if you pray, I would appreciate it.