I have been interning/subbing for one district for about two months now. I know I have paid work everyday now until the end of the school year, which is great. I know I'm fortunate to have this opportunity. Lately though, instead of feeling like I'm growing into a better sub/teacher, I'm starting to feel discouraged. I think the hardest part for me is impromptu teaching; I feel very inadequate in teaching a lesson in readers and writers workshop off the cuff. Math is easier for me, but there are still instances when I find myself unsure of how to explain something (more so at the intermediate level than primary) because I haven't had a chance to review the material or refresh my memory on certain concepts. I feel like more times than not, when I explain something, the kids are either non-responsive or they look at me like they have no idea what I'm saying. It's making me question my teaching abilities. Sometimes I go home wondering if I'm cut out for this. I wonder if this is a rational feeling as a sub. Despite how discouraged I feel sometimes, I really like being in the classroom and in a school community in general. I have had difficult classes, but nothing I would consider horrible; it just gets tiring asking kids to 'stop this' and 'do that'. I try very hard to do the best job I can, but lately it seems all I notice are my areas of weakness and nothing of a strength. I realize the class will never respond to me the same way they do their regular teacher, but what can I do to feel less discouraged? How do other subs feel about their abilities? Are there mental exercises you do for confidence? I think my spirit is just a little shot right now.