Hi, well I'm a 1st year teacher. I moved across country to get a job because jobs in Michigan were scarce. However now I really regret moving. I came in to a low income school about a month after it had started. I got students from 3 different teachers classrooms, and very little in the way of classroom supplies. My library can not fill up one of the long book shelf's I was given and I was given 2, so both are very empty. Since I cam in late I was not given book money and since I had moved across country and left my personal library at my parents I can not fill it up. I have a mentor, who just gives me the same work I had as a student teacher, last semester all I did with him was build another portfolio even though I all ready had 2, one for my time in 1st grade, and one for my preschool. I have parents who complain about me, who I have only met once, and that was this past Friday. They will not return phone calls or letters, but have been in to see the prinicple at least 3 times to complain about me. Thats where I met them on their way back from meeting with him. My students are going home and telling their parents that I'm mean. The reason they say this is because I require them to do work and not just let them play board games, and when I did give them time on friday after they finished thier work I was told by one of my students that he was going to go home and tell his parents how mean I am because I told him to clean up the game he was playing. A qaurter of my parents are still upset that thier students were moved in to my classroom. I didn't have any say in it and so far they gave me no chance but I can understand that. I had one student say he was going to bring a knife to school the next day when I refused to let him go through my desk to look for something. I have to rotunly check my students backpacks for the classroom supplies, because they steal them. I say this because I had a package of Visa Vias in my desk drawer and then found them in a students backpack. I only checked her bag cause I had caught her putting one of the markers in someone else's backpack. I used to think I was good at classroom management, when I student taught I was teaching from the very first day and responsible for the class. I did really good but that wasn't an urban city school. I have 87 days of school left, counting in service days and such, and I just don't know if I can do it. It's so hard, the other teachers resent me because they are being asked to help me with things and I don't have the materials like they did. For example they had the whole summer to prepare teaching the human body to first graders like the Circulatory, respitary, and digestive system. Then they were annoyed when I didn't come to the meetings with a ton of stuff on each subject even though I didn't have a clue what we would be doing the next week until we met. I'm just not sure what to do. I wish I could quit, but the fee for quiting and then breaking my lease and moving back to my parents would be just to much money. I can't afford it. I'm not sure what to do. i have wanted to be a teacher my whole life. I was one of the few guys in my program to even get a pre-school endorsement. I'm just lost. I don't know what do, all I know is that I dread going to work in the morning for the first time in my life. I've all ready used two sick days cause I just couldn't force my self to go. I'm just tired of it, I'm sick of the parents talking down to me. The other teachers treating me like an annoyance. My classroom management has gone down the drain and I need help, or a suggestion for a new profession. I'm at the point where I sent away for info about the Army I'm so desperate to be out of here. I have show my students the expactations for what to do even just during ssr, not only do I have to confrence with a minium of 5 people, I then have to dibel test 5, and the confrence has to be seperate, oh and the prinicple had to talk to a few people before he would agree to give me the time off to be trained in Dibels because I still don't know how to do it. I'm teaching first grade and this is the first chance all year I've had to teach reading because I have had to be teaching the human body and with the time requirments there has been no time. I have first graders who can't recognize their letter but I was told I had to teach them about the human body, because they must all be able to say what platlets, white blood cells and red blood cells do. I'm sorry for the spelling I'm just at the end of my rope and barley holding back tears. I need help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Classroom managment Taking back a class where I'm not in control Having students follow directions Working with parents who resent me for the kids being moved. Having students show respect. or just suggestions on finding another career.