I took my TPA classes a long time ago, the first one in August and the last one some time in September. I didn't feel confident in turning in my TPAs after the classes and after working on them for so long I just dropped the whole responsibility and quit school. I was and still am afraid of failing the TPAs because there is just so little help out there to pass them and every time I look at them I feel like I know less and less about education than I originally thought. I feel like I never even got a sense of what "developmentally appropriate instructional activities" entails, or how to address "developmental needs" and "content goals" through understanding "information about a class." Honestly, when I read these TPAs, I feel like what I was taught in my credentialing program was total BS. It probably was. I attended Phoenix so all I had to do throughout my program is BS one paper after another, and as a philosophy major I know exactly how to BS anything. I know I've messed up beyond any measurable repair. I know that I let my fears turn into laziness, and there is no turning back. Looking at these TPAs makes me question whether or not I will ever be able to grasp what the hell any of this crap means. I can't tell the difference between accommodations and modifications off the top of my head. I can't explain what subject specific pedagogy even entails or specific instructional strategies for ELLs. All I ever had to do was briefly research this stuff and then write a paper on it. With these TPAs I feel that it is obvious I actually have to understand each concept intensely and thoroughly, which I don't at all. And to make matters worse, I lost all the previous work that I even tried to do on these TPAs! So if I even try to complete them I will have to start fresh. Honestly, do I even have a chance at being a teacher?