I'm so frustrated right now that I'm in tears. I'm tired of subbing and having it go nowhere. I'm in my third year as a permanent sub in a district where that position doesn't lead to anything, not even leave replacements. Without previous lead replacement experience, I'm not looked at by any principal for leave replacement positions. Without leave replacement experience, I'm not looked at for full-time positions. I'm tired of being "just a sub". I'm tired of never having any money, no matter how hard I put everything I earn away to save because my student loans are through the roof. I'm tired of having a car that breaks down, but that I can't afford to replace so I just have to deal with it. I'm tired of not having my own health benefits, so that I have to go on state health insurance and pay $400 a month. I'm tired of being on state insurance because I can't earn over $2,200 a month or else it gets cut, and I'm tired of being stuck at a job just because it pays less than that. And I'm tired of being so frustrated that I cry everyday.