Okay, so I have struggled this past year not having a teaching job. While I have consistently subbed for a lot of districts (no lts gigs though) I still feel like i'm just doing something wrong and will never get hired, which scares me as a 23 year old man who wants to settle down and have a nice life, not be some bum who works minimum wage. Anyway, I wonder if the problem is if i'm too sensitive. Not sensitive in the sense that I'm in touch with my feelings, but sensitive to criticism and people not liking me. In my student teaching I was at a tough school where most of the kids are lower income and it is about 3/5's hispanic (its a rural meat packing community). Anyway, while some classes went well, quite a few were disasters. Anyway, sometimes I just couldn't handle when kids were misbehaving and out of line. I even got so mad that once I left the room, found my CT and said I was too emotional to continue or else i'd end up breaking down. It wasn't just the students either. Whenever i'd get criticised by my CT's i would cry and what made it worse was that I felt like I was a terrible teacher, and a terrible man for being such a big fat crybaby and of course I'd bawl and complain at home as well and i would just feel worse and worse. Anyway, I think a lot of it stems from the fact not only that I hate criticism, but due to being heavily bullied and made fun of in school, I hate being criticized and feel that people who criticize me think i'm a loser and a bad person and I take it too personally. Of course what makes it worse is that when its really bad I get angry and yell or say mean things, but I feel worse. Anyway, am I just too sensitive to be a teacher? I wonder if I just am unable to handle criticism in a school environment from colleagues or students. I feel terrible about it because i'm such a big baby, but I feel helpless and can't do anything about it It sucks too because I love my subject (social studies) and I feel that is my strength, but I lack in a lot of areas, or at least am not confident in these areas. I want to get a teaching job just because I want to see how it goes and show that I can do it, but anymore I wonder if I really can. So am I just too sensitive?