Not sure about my program anymore...

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  1. hector99

    hector99 New Member

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    Aug 8, 2018 at 12:25 PM

    Hey everyone, kind of stressed...

    So school starts back up and I am in undergrad. I am getting too far in the program to be considering this now, but I am considering changing my major.
    I loved the clinical hours that I had last year and the students were very good. However, this semester I would need to have a lot more and this includes hours of teaching. I don't feel confident in teaching. I don't feel like I can do it, and because of certain reasons, I really have lost that passion for it. I don't feel like I want to teach anymore.

    Within one week, I must make the decision to either stick with it or leave now. I love the idea of working with students and the atmosphere, but I don't know if I can do it and / or would be any good at teaching. Making lesson plans for teaching used to be so much fun, and I loved the opportunities to do it. Then the spring semester showed up, and I just started making random ones - just to get the good grades. I always said, "When I teach, it will be better." But if I have no motivation to make them now, what makes me think I will have motivation then?

    I guess I kind of answered my own question, but I was wondering if anyone else felt this way and if it were temporary or what? If I do change it, I would change it next week before classes start.

    Thanks.
     
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    Caesar753 Multitudinous

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    Aug 8, 2018 at 1:27 PM

    I mean, lesson planning is probably my least favorite part of the job. I don't know a lot of teachers who are super gung-ho about that.

    What are the "certain reasons" that caused you to lose your passion for teaching?
     
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    Aug 8, 2018 at 1:46 PM

    You do what your heart tells you to do. I can tell you that I was not as enthusiastic about teaching during my practicum hours, because what I saw was very limited. I even looked into going to law school, because I didn't feel like I would be passionate about teaching. Honestly, that passion wasn't sparked again until student teaching. Sometimes it takes seeing it firsthand to understand how you feel. Was it a bad practicum experience that made you lose your passion?
     
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    Aug 8, 2018 at 4:14 PM

    The health would be for my personal reasons. But I feel as if my personality isn't good for teaching. I am upbeat and positive around people my age, but students who are much younger, while I can talk to them... I feel like I come across as "forced" or "awkward" around them. I have had many hours working with them, and the first week or two I just thought maybe because I wasn't used to it and I would be more like my normal self later in the semester. The last day of my hours, in May, I felt like I failed in that one aspect. You see the elementary teachers who are so happy and fun around their students, and I tried that. But that came across as just awkward, not to the students. They always talked to me and they would tell me things about the classroom, gave hugs, and opened up and weren't shy... which was rewarding, but I felt like I couldn't do it as a teacher.
    The lesson planning is just planning / coming up with lessons. I am not too creative or anything with it.
    I think what I might do is just sub occasionally and see how that works. If I really enjoy it, I might move on to be something like a teacher's assistant. If that goes well, then I might go back to school ~later on~ and get a degree in teaching.
     
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    Aug 8, 2018 at 5:27 PM

    I honestly believe colleges KILL the love of teaching for many students. I started as a freshman in the fall of 2008 as a Spanish Ed major. That was my dream and plan... and then I met with my advisors and really started to look at my life. I took one Ed class and said "This is total BS,'' plus I had made friends with a lot of seniors who were at the student teaching portion and really hated teaching. That turned me off. I dropped the ed major and just graduated with Spanish. Flash forward to graduation in the spring 2012 where I had no real plans. I worked at Target for a semester and then enrolled in the MS Childhood Ed program for spring 2013. I'm now in a Literacy Specialist program.
    I don't think there's "one '' or a "right '' path to teaching. I think if it's meant to happen, it will. Even if you drop it now, you may find yourself going back to it one day like I (and so many others) did.
    Just remember a lot of college classwork is total BS and a waste of time. For me the best parts of my education programs were the classroom experiences. I just gritted my teeth and dealt with the rest... while paying $$$$ to do it.
    :roll:
     
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    Aug 8, 2018 at 6:14 PM

    This may of been said but you need to make your decision now. In my clinical experience during undergrad they said it was for the purpose of confirming this is a job you want. If you don't like it I would leave and find something new. Or find positives that would make you want to push through :)
     
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    Aug 8, 2018 at 7:49 PM

    Let me tell you there's at least one moment a day where I feel awkward when I talk to my students. Some people have that knack of finesse when they talk to kids always. I sure don't. I work with 4th graders and I'm so dang awkward all day. Lol. I tend to have moments when I spew out pretty corny jokes and laugh at my own jokes because it's who I am. Teaching is like acting all day long. I choose to act like myself and not hide it. Teaching even younger students is like super acting for me, it's very exhausting and well I don't particularly like it. I prefer upper elementary. They can at last appreciate my awkwardness.

    On the flip side I'm also a strong, organized, well respected and liked teacher. You have to know how be yourself and manage and teach students at the same time. Here's the big thing though, you don't really learn how to combine and implement this until you have your own classroom. When you student teach most of the time you try and mimick your cooperating teacher's style. That's well and fine because you're still learning how to be a teacher. You have to let pieces of your personality and style come through as well.

    Of course only you know what's best for you. But I'm entering my 12th year teaching and my awkwardness isn't really going anywhere, I just embrace it.
     
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    Aug 9, 2018 at 4:38 PM

    I'm going to talk to you as a parent. If you have serious doubts now that teaching will be something that you will pursue to make a living, find something where you can make a living, be successful, and live independently. Will it take an extra year, maybe. But that is better than a degree you hate and won't use. As long as you finish a degree, you can circle back around to teaching later in your life if the tide of what you want to do impels you to make changes. What is a crying shame is the college student who graduates with a degree, saddled with student debt, but lacking any desire or ability to utilize that degree to become self sufficient. Still living at home long after graduation, feeling hopeless and defeated, these students have squandered money, time, and opportunity. If you need to take a break from school at this point, there is something to be said for taking some entry level jobs to support yourself, perhaps finding something that resonates with you in a positive sense. I know that we are teachers here, but it isn't for everyone, and we have read the posts of those who were pushed along in the programs, unable to find a job despite serious job hunts and advanced degrees. If you know it is time to apply the brakes, but don't, you will have no one but yourself to blame if you are unhappy in the profession. Best of luck.
     
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