I'm just writing because I'm tired of being silent. I'm also writing in hopes that maybe someone will read this and not feel so alone or read this and be inspired to comment. I worked really hard to get my degree in teaching -- a master's degree from a top university in my area. I earned an outstanding GPA and was well respected by my professors and colleagues. I was lucky enough to student teach successfully in a particular district that decided to hire me as a full time teacher once I graduated- at the same school! My first half year was awesome. Kids loved me and I was given all advanced classes to teach. The following year I struggled a little with classroom management and I had all Spanish I classes and Spanish II. It was hard, but I got better throughout the year and my evaluations weren't bad (nothing to write home about, but nothing alarming). The next year I decided I wanted to try elementary EL teaching (in the same district). I was placed on the 5th grade team. This was my second year teaching. I loved the school but soon things began to change. I had to go in to other teachers' classes and co-teach, but they had a very specific way they wanted me to do that so I just did whatever the told me to do. This was a new concept for me. I felt I never could teach what I wanted. These two teachers in particular would correct me in front of the kids and if I taught an activity a certain way, they'd tell me there was one particular way to do it even though they'd never shared that with me before. I kept silent because I just figured it would be better for me to continue to pretend like they were right and make them feel important. One day, they both pulled me into a "meeting" during my lunch block. This would be one of the worst days of my life. They attacked me saying they didn't want to have to reteach what I taught wrong and that I should learn the content . I knew I sometimes got it wrong, but always made an effort to review the content when possible (when they'd give me notice of what they were doing). I told them I was sorry and that it was my first year teaching his so that might be why I didn't know it fully. They continued to say things like "Yes, but I had to learn it too, and I don't have to plan because I've worked here 9 years but YOU do." These were seriously their words. I excused myself and my other colleagues told me to go to the principal. When I did, she said that they had been going to her for a long time with complaints about me (behind my back)! I was furious. She then said I could learn from these teachers and that she would facilitate meetings with them. I was so mad. I wound up the behavioral health unit that night because I wanted to kill myself. I took a day off but explained to the principal in an e-mail that I was in the hospital and that I was angry (I regret this but I can't change it) and that I didn't wan to to work with these teachers in after school clubs or any additional capacity. She then replied back saying to go to HR where I went with my mom the next day, where they informed me that "the other teachers have seniority" and that "the principal would always believe them over me" and that the principal wanted to non-renew me and so that I should resign. So I took a leave and am resigning at the end of the year. After two years working for this district, I am furious, ashamed, surprised, you name it. For a long time I thought I would commit suicide. I'm in intensive therapy. They didn't even tell me I could go get my stuff from my classroom (thousands of dollars worth of resources I spent for nothing). When I think of those teachers, I just think "why?". All my other colleagues sent me flowers to my home saying they missed me. I really did work hard there-- those teachers just didn't see it at all. They thought I was lazy. I am going into a non-teaching job in May. I am completely turned off from teaching even though I considered it my life. I feel broken but hopeful things will get better. Months later, I'm still SO mad that I can't describe it.