I am a special education teacher in Ohio mild/moderate k-12 for students in the middle grades. I work a large urban public district. I have been teaching for over 5 years and never thought this day would arrive. For the duration of my career, my attendance has been excellent (never missed more than 2 days each year) and my tdes ratings have all been effective. Lately, thought about resigning due to the stress involved with teaching, but the thought of doing it during the school year has never crossed my mind. At our school, we have students with behavior problems who have always been welcome in our rooms, and my colleague and I have always been open to collaborating with each other and with our students parents. To the point -- We have a student (severe behavior problem) who is with me for two periods a day for pull-out services. This student has been expelled from 2 other schools prior to last year due to violent and explosive behavior (ripping apart office, ripping apart principals office, threatening staff, etc.) We inherited this student last year and he was placed on my colleague's caseload. He made it through last year but had to have a manifestation last spring due to violent and explosive behavior (bumped into a teacher, kicking lockers, threatening peers) One may wonder how he didn't get expelled from our school - as are many of us teachers. Anyway, last week this student began harrasing a peer in my classroom (calling her fat, making fun of body parts, etc.) I told him this is harrassment and he can't do that. I offered him a break outside of the room, offered him a phone call home, the student told me he "hopes I (teacher) die". I asked the student to go to the office to wait until after class where I could meet him and we could call home. The student then walked to my door and began destroying my entire room- kicking trash cans around, punching wall, kicking walls. - I can live with this as it's part of my job duties to shape this sort of behavior. (I sent another student for security) However, in the middle of the student's tirade, he went too far as he came behind my desk, began screaming at me that he hopes I die, began punching and kick the wall and my desk, began raising his fist to my face screaming he hopes I die and he wants to kill me. As he was doing this, I had my hands up (like I was getting robbed), telling him that everything is ok and that he needs to go to the office. He walked away for a moment, thought about leaving, then came back into my personal space and repeated the threats, taunts, fist raising etc. Again, I was cornered behind my desk with nowhere to go. I felt so powerless. I thought that at any moment he was going to punch or kick me. - And if he did, what was I to do? Had I defended myself in any way shape or form I would have been open to investigation for a myriad of legal issues. Luckily he never hit me, again I had my hands up at my sides, calmly telling him to go to the office. This time, he did. - DOESNT END HERE THOUGH! I called down the office and told the secretary that this student is never to be in my presence again, is to be promptly sent to the principal and that I would be writing up paperwork requisite to have the student removed from the building. A security guard came up to my room with witness statements, had other students write down exactly what happened. The other students commented to me how they could see that I was shaken up. - All this at 9:30 in the morning. After the students were done writing their witness statements, (about 25 minutes after the student from earlier had left the room) I walked them into the hall so that they could begin lining up for their next class. GUESS WHO WAS IN THE HALL HOVERING AROUND MY DOOR! - The student from earlier. I again told him to go to the office, he looked and me and said he wasn't going to do anything I said and then began calling me a FXXing FXXXot, I realized that he was about explode again, so I locked myself in my room. Then, with the hallway filled with teachers and students, the student began kicking my door as hard as he could - trying to break my door down. I was scared and so confused as to how he was back on the second floor of our building. I promptly called the office and screamed to our secretery "HE'S BACK UP HERE KICKING MY DOOR IN, IM CALLING THE POLICE" - I didn't call the police and the student was escorted away from my door by somebody (I don't know who). My principal told me to go home for the remainder of the day because I was so distraught - shaking, unable to focus. My principal told me the student would be suspended for 10 days, I replied that if the student was ever allowed back into our building that I would be resigning. Later that night, my wife got home from work (she works for a hospital system in HR). I told her what happened and she looked at me and said " You work in a very hostile environment and should never go back due to your personal safety being at risk." She told me to file a police report to see if the student could get charged with criminal menacing. She told me that the situation I was put in needs to be documented, all witness statements and security camera footage needs to be sent to the union chair and security team for the district. So, the next day I emailed the higher ups in the union and our principal and restated what happened and told them that the feelings of powerlessnes, feelings of being unsafe have understandably jeopardized my level of comfort and confidence in being in front of a classroom. I told them that I wanted to be placed on paid administrative leave and I want to receive counseling and a fitness to teach exam after the way I was victimized by the student. The union leader told me to take as much sick time as I needed while they sort through everything. However, it's less than a week, and I can't hang on any longer. I want to resign so that I can move forward with my life. I realize my license may be suspended for up to a year but at this point, I have been offered a position working at my friends company (nothing related to teaching). I plan on starting there this week and emailing my resignation. I know that I can sit at home and use sick time until all of this plays out, but I don't want to. I want to resign and will not use any sicktime on days that I work at my friend's company. Thoughts? Advice? Thank you in advance.