This isn't really a question. I'm a member, but haven't posted anything in several years. I sub at basically one school, and I've been subbing there on and off for about 8 years. I love all the students, and they seem to love me. Which is awesome. Okay, but here's the thing: I really HATE subbing most of the time. I need the money, and I love working with kids and I love teaching itself. I ALWAYS knew I wanted to be a teacher. What I hate is the fact that sometimes I just can't control the classroom, and I feel like I should be able to. I 'm just "Too nice", and I want the students to like me. I have been finding a lot of excuses NOT to sub when called; I guess I'm basically scared. I have had some really bad experiences, along with some good experiences. I only teach the younger grades, precisely for that purpose. Many of the kids at this school are very behaviorally challenged, a lot of behavior plans and IEP's. I got on here tonight, hoping to pick up some hints to strengthen my behavior management skills. I did get some good ideas. But I also read a lot that has me even more discouraged. I want to get past the fear and be able to benefit not just myself, but the students (of course!) Surviving would be nice, too!