I have spent the last years working at a special ed school as a "student teacher" of sorts while I work my way through college. I actually like my job (usually) and I really like working with the kids there. I get to know them pretty well, as I often have the same kids for several years. Last year I got to experience something cool, as the first kids that i ever worked with when I arrived so many years ago graduated from high school. I was proud of them, and we talked alot about how many times they ended up in my class over the years. It was only fitting that they graduated the same year I moved into the HS class (we only have one). It was a great way to end the year and take the summer off. Sounds all rosey and happy, but my dilemna is this: It is time for me to start thinking about graduate school, and I can't decide which way I want to go. I love psychology, and the original plan was to go into a Clinical Psychology program. But now, I don't know what I want to do. I still want to go in the psych direction, cause i find it fascinating and it challenges me. But at the same time, I like working with these kids. I like teaching, and over the years, I have realized just how good I am at it. I can't always tell you what it is that I do sometimes that makes my classes run smoother, or grabs their attention like my lectures often do, but I know it's there. Several of the led teachers in our school often come to me asking me what should be done, or how to present something, or just ask for help with some of their "unruly" students. The administration here has been waiting for me to finish school so that I can become a lead teacher for some time now, but I think maybe I have been purposely dragging my feet, because I didn't want to face this decision. My soles are worn out now, and I can't drag anymore, and I still don't know what I want to do. Do i get up and leave a job I love to follow through and work in a field that I think I will also love? Or do I stay where I am at (in a different capacity), and put off the clinical work until who know when? I am torn, because even though I know that Clinical is what I want to do, I don't think I realized just how much I liked this job until it was time for me to make a decision about leaving it. I have no idea what I wil do, but for now, any and all advice would certainly be appreciated.