Today was the worst day of my teaching career. Not only did I have to write a rebuttal for my failed observation and write up a student for verbally assaulting me and trying to come at me; I had a panic attack while I was driving, and it almost made me crash. I wanted to be a Viking. I wanted to prove to myself that I could survive until June. I also care so much about what others think about me. I don’t want to be seen as a failure. But things got really, really bad today. I asked myself if I want to be miserable for the next four months. I spoke to my union rep on the phone just now, and he told me I could retract my resignation date and put in my 60-days notice now. Would it matter if I left mid-year? My last day of work would be the day we get back from spring break, April 28th. You all have warned me about my health, and I didn’t listen. I am truly sorry. This school is hell. The kids are impossible, and the administration is comprised of incompetent individuals who abuse and bully their staff. My VP gave me a 2.57 and 2.59 on both of my observations, and I’m so sick of her pestering me over the littlest things, like not having black tape instead of blue tape on the chalkboard or using “inappropriate language” like, “Finish your test, Allison. You’ve got this!” I’ve never ever been this unhappy, and I actually am thinking of switching careers. I honestly don’t want to be a high school teacher anymore, or at least for a while. I’m just scared of what comes next. I’ll have two months to figure it out, but am I making a mistake? And whatever you tell me this time, I will listen. I will learn from the expert teachers here. Thank you.