Hi! I am freaking out here and wondering if any of you can give me some advice on how to be proactive after a bad informal observation. Back story is this in a nutshell: I was hired as a special education teacher at a "prestigious" suburban school outside of Chicago, after working in the city for a few years, also as a special education teacher. Before that, I taught middle school English for 10 years in another state. First, let me say, I have never received anything other than proficient or excellent on evaluations in my whole career. Granted, the first 7 years of my career the principal basically never showed up for observations and if they did it was a basic checklist and you had to be horrific to do badly on it. I decided to move to Chicago to challenge myself as a teacher -- I knew that I would not be pushed to improve in an environment like that, and I was afraid I would eventually not push myself to improve either -- and I wanted to work in a new environment where I would not be "comfortable" anymore. Needless to say, I got the challenge I was looking for. So my first formal observation I got one "needs improvement" and the rest proficient and excellents. The needs improvement was for classroom management -- the reason given for that rating was that I asked a student to participate instead of giving him options of what he could do -- basically I gave him the opportunity to opt of working. I immediately corrected my approach to that student after the post-ob. Needless to say, I was really on edge after the observation because I felt that I would never be able to predict if I did something a little off and it would end up giving me a needs improvement again. To give a little context, the class was engaged and focused during the lesson, except this one student -- and my attempts to get him to participate where viewed as the wrong approach. Anyway, so my next formal was fine score wise, but I was a nervous wreck. I just felt like if I wasn't "perfect" -- and more importantly if they kids weren't perfect -- that it would result in bad scores. My first informal I received a needs improvement for assessment in instruction, because I wan't having the kids struggle on the text enough on their own - I was helping them too much. I did correct this in my second formal, which I received all proficients and excellents. By this point, I was just exhausted. All of four of the observations are done before Xmas break, so they can tell you if they will renew your contract in February. So two days before Xmas break, my evaluator comes in for the last informal (these are always unannounced of course). I was just suddenly frozen. Totally nervous and freaked out. I went ahead and did our lesson as I normally would though, somehow. But this one student, was just bonkers. I am not sure what was going on with him but he kept shouting out for my help, arguing with another student, and eventually took down the american flag. It was awful. I did redirect him every time -- "----, you need to stop shouting and refocus" or "------, you need to get back on task". I wanted to send him to the dean, but they had just spent a good portion of a department meeting basically telling us not to write referrals, so I wasn't sure what would be considered the "right way" to handle him. If she hadn't been in there I would have shut him down, but somehow her being in there made me totally unlike myself. Also, this is a tough class, but it's normally NOT LIKE THIS!!! I was totally thrown off. Anyway... I obviously haven't gotten the results of the observation, but I know it's going to be bad. Is there anything I can do to do damage control? Does it sound like I should get ready to be non-renewed? I know pretty much all the other new teachers have gotten some needs improvement, but this was bad. I am so mad at myself because I am just terrible at observations. I get freaked out and act like someone else. Any advice would be great!